I'm high. I just had 4 mugs of beer, but still high. It's something more than alcohol which brings me to this stage. It's probably because I drank, drove a black piece of junk ( my black kinetic zoom, well actually it's my father's) and didn't speak a word about what I felt, with the "girl whom I liked". She was all the time with me, 15 minutes to be exact, the time taken to travel from sports bar in park square to her place near graphite India, Balaji pg, the place where I lived for a month, thinking that I could get close to her , but. ...I didn't dare. I didn't dare to get close to her and I didn't dare to tell her about it when she was with me on the way back home. I just didn't...
I don't know what it is that stopped me or that has been stopping me from telling her about it. I wouldn't have probably even written about this if I wasn't drunk right now. I keep thinking what that is that restricts me from telling her what I truly feel about her. I remember her telling me, every time I probed her about what she feels about love, relationships and things like that, that she doesn't want one. That she has had enough with this guy of hers with whom she was when she was studying engineering in Mysore. Mysore. .. she was in Mysore for four years and I was in Bangalore, 143.1 kms(to be exact) away from her from 2009 to 2013, and I googled it just now. Anyway coming back to what I was saying, she was fed up of this whole relationship concept , and so, wanted it no more. Trust me, that really made me not to tell her about what I felt about her, when I was riding my bike with her, just an hour ago, and during the 5 months I spent with her and even when I partied with her on the new year's night.
Not only that, my confidence too Held me back always. I was and presently I am not confident about telling this girl what I really feel about her. I just feel so frustrated about why I hold my self back every time. There was this Angel sitting right behind me and I am in my so called " Tiger state" after having four mugs of beer and yet.... I was such a pussy... I just didn't do it. All that I should have done was to have stopped my bike, removed my helmet and told her what I really felt about her.
But...I ....didn't....
I just.... didn't.
P.S. : my vocabulary is not that of an average Blogger, and here I have, just tried to put forth what I felt. Thank you.
I don't know what it is that stopped me or that has been stopping me from telling her about it. I wouldn't have probably even written about this if I wasn't drunk right now. I keep thinking what that is that restricts me from telling her what I truly feel about her. I remember her telling me, every time I probed her about what she feels about love, relationships and things like that, that she doesn't want one. That she has had enough with this guy of hers with whom she was when she was studying engineering in Mysore. Mysore. .. she was in Mysore for four years and I was in Bangalore, 143.1 kms(to be exact) away from her from 2009 to 2013, and I googled it just now. Anyway coming back to what I was saying, she was fed up of this whole relationship concept , and so, wanted it no more. Trust me, that really made me not to tell her about what I felt about her, when I was riding my bike with her, just an hour ago, and during the 5 months I spent with her and even when I partied with her on the new year's night.
Not only that, my confidence too Held me back always. I was and presently I am not confident about telling this girl what I really feel about her. I just feel so frustrated about why I hold my self back every time. There was this Angel sitting right behind me and I am in my so called " Tiger state" after having four mugs of beer and yet.... I was such a pussy... I just didn't do it. All that I should have done was to have stopped my bike, removed my helmet and told her what I really felt about her.
But...I ....didn't....
I just.... didn't.
P.S. : my vocabulary is not that of an average Blogger, and here I have, just tried to put forth what I felt. Thank you.
